Entries for May, 2004
May 6th, 2004
May 8th, 2004
ALIVE!! POSTED AT 06:58 PM After more than a month, I finally left Mt. Apo with all my things in tow. It feels good to be home. I plan to wash my clothes that all smell like the bukid. I plan to wash my sleeping bag and my tent along with it. I plan to wear city clothes - the kind of clothes that don't have mud all over them. I plan to look human tomorrow. I plan to watch as much TV as possible. Hopefully, I won't see my face on it (*wink wink*) I plan to eat pizza. I plan to swear off canned foods at least for a week. I plan to watch a couple of movies. And I plan to spend time with my family and friends. I go back to Mt. Apo next week. Then, on May 24, I'm off to Manila to go to Sierra Madre. I'll be in Sierra Madre for a month. Then I'll be staying in Manila from June 24 to 29. On July 1, I'm heading back to Mt. Apo. I live by the dates. But it doesn't matter. I am living my life, my way! And it's so darn fun!!! |
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May 12th, 2004
Lost POSTED AT 09:05 AM I have been convincing myself that if only I could go home, all the bad things that happened in the mountain would leave me alone. I would no longer be considered a home-wrecker. I would no longer be a slut. I would no longer be called a bitch. Unfortunately, although the situation has changed, my aches and scars are still the same. I have decided, and I have put it in writing, to forgive the people who hurt me during the last month. But my human heart holds on to the pain that my spirit wishes to let go of. I feel like someone who has been living in complete darkness stepping out into the light of the sun. The warmth is soothing, but the brightness is blinding. But... Ok lang yun! hehehehe Enough with the drama... I had a wonderful time yesterday. I was in the office in the morning (during my week off) working. Then I waited for my newly found friend Bayani to arrive. He's a volunteer during the 2nd week of the experimental release. He's a 2nd year vet student at UPLB. We left the office before lunch, under very suspicious eyes. I'm sorry ladies and gents, we're not going on a date. We ate lunch together and did a couple of errands for the foundation. He is, after all, a volunteer. We had coffee (he had coffee, I had a smoothie pala) afterwards and was later met by my "Anak", Kai. Kai is this gorgeous 15 year old who is also a volunteer. I tell you, that kid is going to make men weep. Anyway, we just drove around, literally, to pass time. We waited for Marlon aka My luv to get out of work. Marlon is a civil engineer who is also a volunteer. Basta, ang daming kalokohan. And eventually, we watched Van Helsing, which I loved. I also loved how the three would jump from their seats every time something exciting happens. We dropped Kai near her house (she didn't want her mom to see the pick-up because her mom might freak out) and went to MTS. Things went crazier at MTS. They all wanted me to drink, which I don't. I tried it, I don't like it and I don't want to like it. To make them layoff, I just took one sip. And that's it folks! That's Camille drinking. I'm sorry Boyd, I know you feel like a loser since I didn't give in. Of course, it all ends when people go home. And Yani and Marlon brought me home at around 1am. Thank you Lord for friends. Currently feeling: uhugin |
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May 13th, 2004
Dress? POSTED AT 10:02 AM Anong nakain mo? Ano kayang nangyari sa gimik niyo at nagsuot ka niyan? Uy girl! Parang awa!!!!! Lord, I just want one day when they won't have to put meaning on everything I do. I just woke up yesterday and thought, "I think I want to wear a dress today." It has nothing to do with the gimik and the people I went out with. It's not in what I ate. Bahala na sila. Basta ako, happy ako... Bow. Currently feeling: happy joy joy as usual |
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May 14th, 2004
Gimikera? POSTED AT 10:12 AM Through text: Bayani: Ei guys, showing ang troy at 2:20. Wanna watch? Me: (without missing a beat) Wen? Bayani: I'll pick u up. Let's have lunch at kfc or sumthing sa SM para malapit lang. Me: Okidoki. hahahaha... And I was at work. This is supposed to be my week off. So I took the afternoon off. Being the good girl that I am, I told my mom that I was gonna take the afternoon off and that I was going to hang out with Bayani. My brothers saw us after the movie. Kuya: HOY! (pointing his finger at me) Uwi! Me: *smile* Hi. Kuya: (to my younger brother, Lance) Yung kapatid mo oh. Lance: Sinong kasama mo? Me: (going down the escalator, pointing at Bayani) Siya. Typical brothers. hheeeh... Later that night, Marlon aka my luv, Tatit, Ruby and I went to MTS. Bayani, who organized the gimik, later bailed because he had a head ache. He got it sometime after one of the bed scenes in the movie. hahahha... We had so much fun! Loser Bayani! (hmm... I'm being a mean friend) We bought, well, I paid for it, the Selecta chocolate ice cream with toppings. Then we just ate in the park. We later had junk food and Coke. Boyd later followed. Then Sherwin arrived. Sherwin bought siomai and riblets. Yummy! We went home at around 2. Ruby left earlier though. My luv brought me home. Tatit and I are already planning for another gimik for next week before I leave for Sierra Madre. I can't wait! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Rhoie, buang jud ka poreber! Sorry, I don't think I can go out tonight or tomorrow. I think I have to stay home. I'm going back to Apo on Sunday. Currently feeling: sleepy happy |
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The Henyo POSTED AT 05:21 PM Bakit kamo? Wala lang. Inggit siya kasi hindi ko daw nasabi yung pangalan niya dun sa mga gimiks. Siya yung pangunahing BI. Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit Tatit BOW. |
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May 15th, 2004
Random POSTED AT 11:38 AM hahahaha... Ay! ok... may story na ako. Yesterday, I was trying to get this darn year-end report done but I was so sleepy because I only had three hours of sleep. When I finally decided to go home at around 6pm, Ruby told me that some people are coming over to the office to fix the computer. I decided to stay na lang since she would be alone and she doesn't know those people. Wala lang, para lang hindi nakakatakot diba? When the people left, I was getting ready to go home and then it rained... HARD. So, stay na lang ulit. Tapos, nag brown out. So, stay na lang ulit. hahaha... Finally, when the rain was reduced to a soft spray, Ruby grabbed a cab and I waited for my parents. And yes, brown out pa rin. And when I woke up this morning, I found a text message from Bayani asking if we, ang mga CLIP, went out. hahaha.... He ignored all our text messages last Thursday because he knew we were all gonna try to convince him to come. I think my ex-luv (ok Pambs, I will explain na. hahaha... We just started calling each other "my luv" because we constantly pulled each other out on the radio while we were in Apo. Wala lang. It just popped and stuck. But ex na siya cause "divorce" na kami. He has a real girl friend at hindi ako yun. hmmm... mas nakagulo ata ayun ah. hahahaha) is going to come over to the office later today. What else? I'm hungry. But that's expected right? I'm going back to Apo tomorrow. That is if I finish the darn year-end report. I'm almost done po. And I do know that if I spend more time making the report than typing non-sense here, I'd be finished by now. But I'm not spending more time on it. Obviously! hahaha... Magulo ba? Obviuos bang namiss kong magtype? Oh!! And I so love the Maroon5 album. Pero bad ako, I just ripped Bayani's cd. hahaha... I'm going to buy my own copy next week. Oh, and I want Joss Stone's album too. NO TO PIRACY! hehehe I got to chat with Pambs last night. Miss ko na si Dandan. Sana ma complete ang 888 pag punta ko ng manila. Miss ko na din si Anj. San ba kayo nagtatago? Nakausap ko din si Peachy pero nawala siya. Sinong kumuha?!?!?! Magulo na ba? hahaha.... Currently feeling: crazy-er |
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May 19th, 2004
Ha Tatit! POSTED AT 11:56 AM  You're like the nucleus of the cell! You know everything because you contain all of the cell's information for building protiens in the form of DNA. Isn't that cool? What cell organelle are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla |
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May 20th, 2004
Ewan ang title POSTED AT 08:58 AM I am turning into a biyatch. Ewan, I guess being called one even when you're not makes you feel you have every right not to disappoint them. I miss who I was. Please just let me feel the warmth in a cold night. I can't wait to go home to Manila. I intend to find myself there... amidst my friends... amidst my family... when none of the things that bother me exist but where people I care for are hurting. I still feel stuck in the middle sometimes. It is my tragedy. *batok* AT... ang drama ko noh? Antok lang yan, Camille. Antok lang yan. Currently feeling: confused |
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May 21st, 2004
Lost my mind POSTED AT 08:28 AM *I am so excited that I'm going to Manila that I forget that I have to endure a month long eagle recon first. Frankly speaking, I am afraid of Sierra Madre. It is among the last untouched, uncharted forests in the Philippines. I'm not sure I'm prepared for it. I don't think anyone can be prepared for it. Compared to Sierra Madre, my Mt. Apo assignment is a walk in a park. Lord, let me survive Sierra. *My brother and some girl friends from Manila went to Malikungko(?) for a medial outreach. I'm ticked at the Manila people. They made my brother carry a 28kg bag! Stupid! City dwellers! They don't know a thing. I checked Lance's bag before I went to sleep last night and it wasn't at all heavy. This morning, Kuya said they weighed it and it was 28kg. What the heck are those people climbing a mountain for if they won't carry their bags! Don't they know you should only carry a maximum of 15kg?! I should have gone with them. So they won't be able to make demands on my brother. I never made my brother carry around my things when we trek. City dwellers! *sigh* That's the tragedy of my brother. He's so nice. And such a gentleman too. Oh well, he's strong, he's an athlete. I know he can deal with it. *Later today, Kuya and I are going to buy some things for my Sierra trip. *I have to work now. heheheheheheheh Currently feeling: blank |
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At work POSTED AT 05:07 PM  me observing Kabayan... Tama ka Rhoie-na-baliw, maitim talaga ako... eh ano ngayon? hehehehe....  preparing to traverse  pretending like i know what i'm doing  ayan na... wait lang...  getting ready to transfer myself to the descender... sakit na singit from the seat harness.. hehehehe.... Inggit si Rhoie!!! |
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May 24th, 2004
Weekend Recap POSTED AT 01:00 PM Had yummy lunch at home. Wala lang... My parents are giving me almost everything I want right now because I'm leaving soon. Went out with the CLIPS (Bayani, Tatit, Boyd) at night. Rhoie, his friends Lucky and Kristine were there too. Bayani brought a friend along too, Regan. Basta fun! Sunday After the service, the family went out. We went to three different malls. We watched Starsky and Hutch. I'm so disappointed that I didn't get to watch Shrek 2. Dami kasing tao. I'm gonna try again tonight. We ate dinner at this Korean restaurant. I have to say, I think I love Korean food. hehehehe Today I'm all packed for Sierra Madre. I am so excited. I need this trip. hehehehe... Kelangan kong mahirapang maglakad ng buong araw.... hahay... baliw na nga akong tunay. I am more excited about staying in Manila afterwards. Oh wait, sinabi ko na yun diba? hehehehe.... Currently feeling: excited na |
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May 25th, 2004
Leaving POSTED AT 09:25 AM When I was about to sleep, my father asked my mom, "gusto mo dito matulog baby mo? Aalis na siya eh." I promptly got up from my made sofa-bed and laid down beside my mom. There I was, 21, laying in my mother's arms. I was soothed by the rhythm of her heart beat. I tried to follow the rise and fall of her breath. And, like when I was younger, I fell asleep. I felt the tightness in my mother's embrace. All throughout the night, my mother would go back to putting her arms around me. I know it is hard for her to let me go, to let me do what I want to do... to let me grow up. When I come home from this trip after a month, my parents won't be home. They'd be in Vietnam. When my parents come home from Vietnam, I won't be home. I'd be in Mt. Apo. When I come home from Mt. Apo, my parents won't be home. They'd be in Australia. This really is me leaving. While I go seek the adventure of my life, my mom seeks to have her baby girl. Currently feeling: dramatic |
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