bwahahah
POSTED AT 08:40 AM

duskee

The perfect breakfast
a slice of uber moist chocolate cake with two scoops of vanilla ice cream, slices of strawberries and chocolate syrup.

YUMMY!!

I've been doing nothing but sleep, eat, watch TV and talk on the phone for the past four days. It's a big break from the 13 days of being on field, 9 days of which were spent with about 2-6 hours of hike a day. I have to admit I miss the grind of it all. For the past nine months I've allowed my behind to get big in Mt. Apo. I'm a spoiled little girl. Now I feel the consequences. Still, as always, it was so much fun. Even if my legs are so sore they're now numb. Even if my galis allergies is at it's worst now.

I now look like an uber tanned reptile with curly hair. Geesh. I wonder, when will I look like a real girl? My allergies are so bad now that I have to use over-priced "beauty" products to make them better. We're talking about P120 for a bar of soap. It might have gold in it somewhere. My new doctor upped my meds to one with sedatives in it. Yeah, pare! Heaven! hahaha... My beloved yamyam denise told me that she heard cases like mine heal faster if I were on a fruit/vegetable diet. I am practically on one, except when I'm on field of course (because all I eat then are dried salted fish and canned foods, with the occasional wild animals. yeah yeah, I'm a conservationist, but we need our protein. leave us alone! we'll eat bambi if we want to. hahahaha). Then she says the unpardonable...

WITHOUT THE PIZZA

How can anyone who loves me so much be so mean as to ask me to not eat pizza?!?!

Pizza is vegetables! Dough is made of flour, flour is from wheat. Wheat is considered vegetables. It has tomato sauce, tomato is a vegetable/fruit (whichever way you want to look at it). It has onions and they're vegetables!

hahahaha...

Salamat po PLDT sa P10 per call for NDD and Smart. At least now I can argue with my yamyam denise with non-sensical stuff like that.

And the other part of the evil trio is now officially a girl. hahaha... Miss you, Riya. Yes, there are people as evil as you-know-who that exist in real life.

I'll be posting more pictures eventually. I'm just too lazy right now.


I'm shy... NOT! hahahahah

(There is some non-bwahaha news for me, however.)

Late bloomer
POSTED AT 09:52 AM

duskee

I had a realization this weekend that made both my mom and yamyam denise laugh out loud at me...

I am only now, at age 22, going through psychological puberty.

It's true, I am a late bloomer. <---understatement of the year

I've just never been so bombarded with so much emotions I don't know what to do with them. I am at the peak of my insecurities and only now feeling self-concious.

It doesn't help me at all that I now play the role of bitterness-reliever to my yamyam denise and to Abe. Hahay, the things I do for love. hahahaha

Oh well, like the saying goes, "what doesn't kill you, will make you want to commit suicide."


*****
It's official! I will die this week. I'm have been ordered by my mom to stay in a strictly fruit and vegetable diet. Torsdey would surely die if she had to go on one. Except of course, if you count chocolates as veggies, then she'll be more than happy to oblige. hehehe... *winks at Torsdey*
Currently feeling: hungry for pizza

FOOd
POSTED AT 11:45 AM

duskee

YES!!!

I can eat beef! woohoo... And I conviently cooked braten (German roast beef) and mashed potatoes last night. Ain't I a lucky girl. Hahaha... And, I can eat bread. So that means, I can eat pizza. If you don't want to accept my argument that pizza crust is vegetable, pizza crust is made of dough, dough is effectively bread. *insert here the words: She's a loser* Provided na beef lang ang toppings. harharhar

I went to my doctor again yesterday. She changed my prescription to anti-histamine with steriods. That's how bad my allergies are. But my parents didn't want to give me steriods, (it might ruin my chanes of joining the Olympics... hahahah...) so they prayed for me instead. I wonder why we didn't do that when my allergies began? So know, by faith, I am healed. I didn't by the new meds nor did I drink the old one. And stretching faith a little, I whispered to my mom...

Now that I'm healed, I can eat chocolates again.

*palo palo*

hehehehe...

And...

I don't have field work for the entire month of March. Normally I'd be upset, but March 2005 has been a promised month for us [by God]. So I don't really mind. I'm excited. And hungry.

Camille goes MOOO
POSTED AT 11:50 AM

duskee

hahaha...

I feel like a canibalistic cow.



cow - eats grass (cause I eat leaves a lot right now, 'ya know, lettuce and cabbage)
cannibalistic - I can only eat beef

Believe me when I tell you I absolutely love food.

To make the craving worst, there's a flyer from Yellow Cab on the computer table. GRRRRRR....

Note: Camille LOVES pizza

Greetings
POSTED AT 11:54 AM

duskee

Hi to Tita Tina and Binky! It's so nice to see your names on my tagboard. I miss you all too. Lola and I have plans to go to Germany in June. But it'll on depend on Lola. Love you!

*sigh*
POSTED AT 12:29 PM

duskee

I am in my all time emotional low right now and it sucks!

Glazed Shame
POSTED AT 12:49 PM

duskee

Forgive me for talking in riddles.

Did you think I was ashamed?

Or was it that you were ashamed of me?

I heard somewhere that we all have holes in our hearts the shape of our -.

I don't have a hole. I just have a dent. A dent with a complete imprint of -.

I wonder, when will I be good enough? 

Just please, tell me how to make you proud.

When and how can I take back your disappointment?

Glaze. 

 

 

 

 

Tired
POSTED AT 10:53 AM

duskee

I'm tired of hearing my heart break every time I breathe.

kasi si tatit
POSTED AT 03:09 PM

duskee

random 10

1.  loose yourself by eminem
waaaaa... just because eminem is so hot in this video. ewan... this is how weird i am. i am a pastor’s kid, but i’ll marry eminem in a heart beat

2.  prince ali by robin williams
hahahha... ang saya lang ng song... the first cd that me and my brothers were given was the soundtrack of aladin... we’d be marching around going crazy inside our parents room when we listen to this song....

3.  bright lights by billy crawford
masarap lang kopyahin yung kay tatit. hahaha... at kasi favorite ito ng yamyam ko... she drools over billy crawford... hola hola hola!

4.  sweetest goodbye by maroon5
my favorite cut from the cd... i don’t know.. i have this thing for songs and good byes, just because i’m weird.

5.  ako’y sa’yo, ika’y akin by iaxe
*insert kilig here* this is the first song ever played for me by a guy... hahaha... wala lang... high school setting, i was a nerdy sophomore, he was the jock senior, it was linggo ng wika, he played the guitar, his classmate who is my neighbor/friend sang it, he played it for me... kababawan lang... leave me alone! i’ve never had a song dedicated to me before and i haven’t had another song after the second one the same guy dedicated to me... ay... and my first crush loved to play this song in his guitar during Fridays, which is always an anything-goes day... yes, i had my first crush when i was in second year high school... i think that should explain why my love life has been non existent... anyhoo... this song evolved into being one of my favorites...

6.  it’s all coming back by celine dion
i actually hate this song... pero wala lang... i sang it for a recital... so that’s one reason to hate it diba? hahahaha.... and my best friends torture me with this song every time sinasabi kong i think i’m liking my supposed ex-crush again... yeah, big deal sa akin ang crush... i’ve only had two you know... *insert loser here*

7.  you’re my you by nyoy volante and mannos
this is just the most romantic song ever i swear... i just wish it were more EMO than a pop ballad para mas enjoy... i’m sure that if someone sings it to me, na EMO, tapos medyo katunog ng boses ni sean beal, patay na! akin ka na! hahahaha....

8.  when i’m 64 by the beatles
 this is one song my dad loves to sing to my mom... and he’s only a few years away from being 64 too... only 11 more years.. hahaha... i love my dad’s voice...

9.  tell me by side a
a friend of mine taught me how to play it on the keyboards, i have a history with this guy... a long and complicated one, pero no, nothing romantic... anyhoo, my best friend, Rhon (Sept 21, 1979 – Mar 13, 2000) and i loved to sing this to each other over the phone. it is also one of the songs my dad and i used to sing together when we just moved to davao... well, i’d be singing and playing the keyboards and he’d be strumming his guitar... it’s fun singing with my dad.
 
10.  on bended knees by boyzIImen
this is my all-time favorite. sayang hindi na complete ang band. anyhoo, i first saw them sing this sa grammy’s when i was in sixth grade, and i just loved the song and the group instantly... sarap lang ding mag-emote to this song while driving... wala lang...

what is the total amount of music files in your computer?
ay ewan... sa laptop ko siguro pang 20cds lang yung laman

the last cd i bought/got was jazz trumpet collection

what was the last song you listened to before reading this message/entry?

  cater to you by destiny’s child

write down 5 songs you listen to a lot or mean a lot to you.

1. kasama ka by nikki gil

yes it’s the coke commercial song... it’s such a good song... di ba? the message is the kind we need more of in our songs... leave me alone... i don’t drink coke but the commercial is a winner... plus, ang tagal ko itong lss at ang dami kong nahawa dahil sa kakakanta ko

 

2. hero by mariah carey

boy did i love this song when i was in grade school... wala lang... “you don’t have to be afraid of what you are...” lalalalallaa....

 

3. through it all by rommel guevara

this is a church song... it was sang at my grandfather’s wake and funeral 2003.

 

4. pay attention by valeria andrews and ryan toby

don’t you just love the sister act 2? this particular song sorta fuelled by high school years... especially when my grades weren’t as good as my dad wanted it to be...

 

5. other she by ria and jegs cantuba

this was a song my best friend and her brother wrote for a contest in high school. love your own di ba? that was the last time we ever collaborated on anything.

who are you gonna pass this stick to? (3 persons and why?)
hmmm gusto ko sana kay tatit ulit para lang mag higanti... pero sa kanyan ito galing eh.

 

gusto ko sana kay ruby naman para sa kanya na lang ako maghihiganti... pero sinagutan na niya para kay tatit.

 

so siguro kay yamyam na lang... kasi hindi niya kilala si tatit at ruby. hahahaha...

Trying to understand
POSTED AT 09:54 AM

duskee

I'm not a sad person. So it depresses me to be depressed.

I realized however, that my sadness has largely to do with my illness. I have the shingles. It's depressing cause it hurts and it's so freakingly gross.

Like I told my yamyam, it's only now that I'm going through puberty. So being as self-concious as I am because of "puberty" added to the grossness of shingles and the pain, I'm depressed.

Don't worry. It's nothing serious. I don't need pills or anything. Besides, I don't think I can take pills granting my "imperfect" kidneys.

For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. So being depressed kinda dictates that I get to see that sun shine sooner or later right? It's the law.

Anyhoo... I love to bake. I love to feed my family. Even if my dad kinda always has a "comment," I'd still wake up at 3 or 4 in the morning just so that they'd have warm muffins, or donut for breakfast. It makes me feel good.       

Do you see now how my brain works? It doesn't.

A little girl just drew me a pink flower. It's so ironically sweet. I guess only tatit and ruby would understand the significance of this.

Over all, I have one conclusion: Life is still sweet no matter what.

 

Kilig
POSTED AT 09:49 AM

duskee

I've said it a couple of times before, and I'ma say it again...

I LOVE WILL SMITH!

It just seems so unfair that that "hunk of burning love" (I'm quoting Oprah)  doesn't have a single, available, Filipino counterpart.

Love him, love him, love him, love him, love him! 

Who am I kidding? Even if there was a "Will Smith" guy somewhere out there, he probably won't notice me. A girl can dream... lalalala...

And, it's too bad Manny Pacquiao lost. Men, if it weren't for that head butt! It's ok though, he's still the best.  

 I've got songs from Phantom of the Opera echoing in my head.

 

Joy! 

 

 

Currently feeling: hyper

Happy Giddy-yap!
POSTED AT 10:51 AM

duskee

Love is in the air...

I wish I could smell it....

Oh wait...

Oh... It's just my perfume....

Yes, I love being single. But I don't think it would be that bad if someone would come along and make my heart go pitter-patter crazy.

I agree with erwie but I do want that happy giddy feeling, which I am well aware won't last forever.

I'm single by choice and because I have no choice. And it's not pathetic.

Yesterday, I was blowing a friend off by telling him that we don't have a future. It is true. It doesn't matter that there are people who think/thought that we had/have something going on. We don't have a future together. I am just so sure of it, it's scary. How do I know we can't be? I don't even know what I want. And yes rubs, I still believe we can't be.

I have the happy giddy feeling. I wish I could say I was in love, but I'm not.

So just let me use these shoes for now. I just don't want to wear my trusty hiking shoes today. I'll fix myself up because I want to. If I smile, it's just because I'm happy. Today, I dance to life singing songs from Phantom of the Opera.

Love is in the air. But I can't smell it.

And still, life is ok.

Happiness
POSTED AT 10:23 AM

duskee

Happiness is...

Looking for cds of show tunes, finding none, bought Disney hits and... got another cd for free!

Being led by God to give your new Bible, the one you've been looking for for a while and obeying.

Sleeping all day in an air-conditioned room and watching movies on the TV with your parents.

Waking up each morning.

Wala lang
POSTED AT 08:13 AM

duskee

Happy ako..

EWAN!!!

Panic ako.... pero happy...

Yun na yun.

Bow.

I'm supposed to meet my best friend, Ria's, non-boyfriend. But I don't know where he is. He wanted me to follow them to the beach last Sunday. But we had plans already. He should go to me right? So if I go to Butuan this weekend, he should go to Butuan too. Hehehehe...