WARNING
POSTED AT 02:30 PM

duskee

You know the feeling when you're supposed to be happy then something happens to dampen your mood?

It's like enjoying a swim then having a big person jump and land on top of you.

It's like dreaming of that slice of pizza and when you finally get it, it doesn't taste nowhere as good as you remembered it to be.

Or seeing a tub of ice cream in the freezer but realizing that it's empty once you got it.

I don't know, but I'm standing somewhere between happy and downright sad.

I'm moody, my body aches all over and I'm trying to hang on to any thread of a smile I could catch.

It's so bad that despite the fact that I'm eating pizza later with good company (which I only turn down when I'm brainwashed or really, really sick) I'm still not perky.

Pfht!

Where's a smile when you need it?

 

***

On a less psychotic note (come to think of it, it's just as psychotic), I'm so excited about the mere thought of applying to this University, kinikilig ako. And, I'm checking out the students who I might or might not meet when I start school there (as if there's an assurance I'd get it noh?). And they're so cute and so darn brilliant I'm already intimiated. hahaha 

 

About last night
POSTED AT 09:26 AM

duskee

So I was determined to have a bad day yesterday. And I was determined not to let anything cheer me up.

After work, Tatit and I went to the parlor and I muscled up the courage to get another haircut. My hair didn't get ruined or anything. We'll know tomorrow if it's a good cut or not. hahaha

We then went to Yellow Cab to meet up with a Rheyda, Anna Mae, my Kuya Butch and our volunteer Thomas. We went a little crazy over the pizza, just a tiny tad bit crazy.

We then decided to drag ourselves to MTS to drink and play billiards, both things I don't do. I tagged along for the company. Sadly, Anna Mae had to go home. 

I texted my younger brother Lance and asked him to come if he wanted to, which of course he did. One of Thomas' friend also came, Andrew.

While they were enjoying their game and their drinks, I went to Blugre to buy myself Blugre Chai (which is so good by the way) and some fattening sweet stuff for Lance (who hasn't had dinner yet) and some to bring home, either for midnight snack or breakfast.

We went home at midnight, just like good little kiddies.

What's my point? Though I was so determined to have a bad day, it ended with a good night. Which goes to show that good pizza and good company can always make a horrid day better.  

On another subject, my parents' phones are coming today. Excited!

non-coherent
POSTED AT 01:02 PM

duskee

I saw something I wasn't meant to see. And I couldn't look away even if I knew I should have. I feel a bit guilty because now I know there is truth to past suspicions. Now, I understand.

***

My parents got their new phone last night. It's very nice. It's exactly what my mom wanted and a bit more.

I spent my morning transferring contacts from my dad's old phone to his new one. Since his old phone didn't have the “Send All” option, I had to transfer his one million contacts one at a time. I only got to the letter M and I had to stop cause I need to go to work.

My mom also met two Dutch social scientists based here in Davao. I guess they wanted their company to tie up with my mom's University. Anyway, my mom told the story of how I ate a cockroach when I was about 2 years old. Which is fine of course since I did put the live cockroach in my mouth. You can't blame me cause at 2 years old, I wasn't expected to know better. Look where it has taken me now. I'm eating lizards and civets and frogs and what-nots. Anyway, back to my point, one of the Dutch (according to my mom anyway) was really handsome. The other was a girl so she doesn't count. And I was kidding around telling my mom how her telling that story could be a hindrance to him falling in love with me. Hahahaha...

Wala lang... useless story but I want to tell it.

Oh yeah, my yamyam called me yesterday in my mobile using her landline. She told me one of her co-workers was coming home to Davao for the holidays and she lives in my neighborhood. I'm most probably going to meet up with her.

I don't have the holiday spirit. Which I think is so ironic cause last year i was walled with field work during the holidays but i was the first to finish my shopping and even had time to bake cookies for my mom to give away. And now, well, now, I'm not excited about anything. I was trying to find the holiday spirit by listening to a punk song singing “Grandma got run over by a reindeer...” I don't think it helped.

I wish the rest of the field team would come home. It's lonely in the office knowing I could have been out there with them instead of sitting in front of the computer. Come to think of it, most of my field works lately are lonely. It's hard to explain everything since I don't get it all either. It just sucks to be so reminiscent about something so short lived. Hambug!

Currently listening to: Secret - Maroon5 (Songs about Jane)
Currently reading: Population Ecology of Raptors - Ian Newton

Of parties
POSTED AT 10:52 AM

duskee

Now if you know me, you would know that I am not the partying kind. So I don't understand it myself that I went to four parties over the weekend.

On Saturday, we had the despedida party of our Chilean volunteer, Tomas. Before that though, Tatit and I went to the badminton court, she played, I read a geeky ecology book. After the game, we kidnapped two friends to gate crash the party. Before getting to the party, we passed by one of the friends' house, Andy. We had a fore-taste of a party there with Magic Sing, coca-cola and the best pancit ever. So, on to the juicy part. The party was a complete disaster. The owner of the house where it was supposed to be held backed out at the last minute that even Tomas didn't know what was going on. They had to change the venue to this small restobar and when we got there, we didn't really feel the crowd. Andy left after taking us there. And because it was Tomas's party, we weren't expecting to pay anything, but it ended up we had to pay the drinks we ordered. Then they hauled us, almost by kidnapping, to this resto near the beach. The area looked a bit sleazy and the types of people we would never voluntarily hang out with were there. Poor, poor Tomas. He looked like he was as bummed about it as we were. He practically begged for us to stay. We left before midnight a bit bummed. The good side though, and I hope Tatit, doesn't tease me about it, was meeting this interesting half-half-person who's into snakes.

Sunday was supposed to be for Tatit since she's celebrating her 100^th birthday. But my brothers and I found out that Noe, our “cousin”, was gonna have an impromptu 8^th birthday party. Don't ask why. So we came to her house to rescue her mom. We brought the party with us with party favors and candies for loot bags. I gave Noe an air-brush tattoo kit (it's such a cool toy). It turned out to be a cool birthday party. We ate lots of food and had lots of candies. I helped with the games while my brothers watched Herbie. Don't ask me why.

On our way to Noe's, my dad called me to ask me to come with him to Nuan's despedida dinner. He's a Vietnamese refugee who owns a restaurant (excellent food!) and became a good friend of the family. He's going to the States tomorrow. I couldn't turn down that thought of all that delicious Vietnamese food, and more importantly, I can't turn down my dad. So, after coming home from Noe's, I made mashed potatoes for Tatit's party first (it was the fastest batch I ever made, but it turned out delish!). My dad and I dropped off the mashed potato at Tatit's party, then went to Nuan and had my second dinner for the night. The food was excellent as usual.

After our goodbyes, my brother Butch, my “week-end sister” Mayzel, and I went to Tatit's, watched PBB and Adult swim, talked some, sang some, and went home after a full day's work of partying. We brought home some food for my loser baby brother Lance who was supposed to come with us too, but stayed at home instead.

Maybe going to parties isn't such a bad thing, as long as it comes in small doses. 

Currently feeling: still full

YES!
POSTED AT 09:46 AM

duskee

The results are in and have been available for a while now.

Good thing I decided to call to check up on it.

I got the highest possible score!

Thank you Lord. This is just too awesome! 

Currently feeling: giddy-happy

Hay dunno
POSTED AT 12:11 PM

duskee

I don't know.

I'm a coward. Tatit I can't dare to play along. Even if I so want to. hahahaha...

Wala lang. So out of character it sucks to even care.

Anyway...

We got our frist rabies and tetanus vaccine injection yesterday. The injection itself wasn't bad. It really didn't hurt much if at all. But it drained me out somehow. I was so hyperactive when I got to the office. After the injections, I just felt so tired. When I got home, I only had enough energy to kiss my dad and tell him I was going to sleep.

I was knocked out instantly. I didn't even get to go to the prayer meeting, they just left me at home. My dad kept on feeling for my temperature just to make sure, I was a bit hot when I got home. My tetanus shot hurt a lot throughout the night. But I'm fine now. I'm ready for more injections. Puncture away! hehehehe

I have a pimple growing on my nose. It sucks!

Oh the things we blog about... 

Can I dwell on my self-pity for a bit? Other than my pimple, I'm a bit sad that my family didn't make a big deal about that profiency results. Come to think of it, no one did but me. I mean sure it's obvious I'd pass, maybe even getting a high score was expected. But, I don't know. Maybe it's asking too much. Who needs a pat on the back every time she does something great? Me! hahaha... I mean, I was jumping and shrieking in joy when I got the results. And when I got home, it's like it didn't happen.

Oh well... back to  happier things...

Ang pasko
POSTED AT 01:14 PM

duskee

Oo nga't wala kaming Christmas Tree. Bukod sa nakakatamad nang magtayo, sino bang may gustong magbayad ng pagkamahal mahal na electric bill? Hindi bale na lang. Hindi naman tungkol sa puno ang Pasko di ba?

Sa katunayan, dahil ramdam na ang Pasko sa bahay kahit walang puno, binigay na ng nanay ko ang regalo niya sa aking ama. May MP3 player na siya. Bakit ako wala?!?!?!

Masakit talaga ang pimple ko. Pango na nga may pimple pang kalahati ng ilong ko ang laki. hahahaha... 

Climbing
POSTED AT 02:32 PM

duskee

This sucks. I discovered something new this weekend. I don't want to know! bwahahaha...

Anyway, my Saturday was dedicated to me wearing a climbing harness.  We had an introductory training on rope climbing and rappelling. Gosh, I missed climbing trees. And I have so much respect for heights that I always get a bit anxious before and while climbing. I love it.

Afterwards, for the life of me I don't know why, we went wall climbing. Though I have a healthy exposure to climbing, I'm always intimidated by the wall. I was freaking out and they had to force me to get into the harness. I didn't want to. But I did anyway. I had two rounds, once on the easy wall and once on the wall with an incline. I reached the top and it's so wise I stopped when I did. I was so sore the next day. I guess that's what happens if you just sit on your bum for a couple of months.

Next climbing schedule is this Saturday. I'm excited. Just don't expect me to show the same kind of enthusiasm for wall climbing.

I'm almost done buying presents. It's so weird that I can splurge on expensive things I want for myself as long as I give them to other people. I have given my dad almost everything I wanted to give myself this year. hahahah... It's all good. I'm happy if they're happy.

What else? It's so nice that my best friends are now hanging out together again. It's been ages since they were last together. I think the last time was when I got back from my vacation. My friends are just awesome with a capital AWE!   

Hay na lang
POSTED AT 04:09 PM

duskee

Just when my day is going so well... sisingit na naman siya to dampen my spirits.

Buti sana kung ikaw ang aakyat at ikaw ang mahuhulog, mabalian ng buto o kung ano man. Kaso hindi eh, kami ang aakyat, kami ang delikado. Please lang!

Whoa!
POSTED AT 01:23 PM

duskee

I want my very own King Kong to crush all the monsters in my life. Bite their tongues out, break their jaws. Woohoo!!!

Ooppss... sorry... too violent.

I'm so excited for tomorrow. Rope climbing and rappelling here I come. I love it. I love it. I'm scared of it most of the time but I so so so love it.

I want to get married on top of a tree. Harharhar... beat that idea!

I'm a hyperactive typer. lalalal... too much pasta.

Way, way too much pizza. I love it!